Monday, February 4, 2013

No Turning Back

In my first post for this month, I discuss the "no turning back" aspect.  I have entered the amusement park fully aware that I made the choice to come and ride these potentially crazy and uncertain rides, so it was now my choice on how I was going to view the rest of this adventure.

I was asked by my DEAR FRIEND Lacy Crowell to do a podcast for Come Fill Your Cup.

Come Fill Your Cup is a wonderful tool for ladies to dig a little deeper in their spiritual walk, listen to encouraging podcasts, attend retreats, participate in Bible studies, and read encouraging articles by our fellow sisters-in-Christ.  Here is what the website says regarding this wonderful service:

"Grab a cup of tea, coffee, cocoa, water– whatever. Sit for a moment and take time to fill your spiritual cup. This is a space built just for ladies. It’s a space for you to read other ladies’ thoughts on scripture, love, life, God, our Savior and the Holy Spirit. It’s a place for you to be filled, but also to fill others’ cups. You’re invited to share your comments and thoughts, your ups, your downs, highs, lows, sorrows and triumphs. It is our most sincere hope that you will find encouragement to help you toward fuller service to God."

Visit Their Website Here: 
http://comefillyourcup.com  


Click Below to Listen to my podcast:

Fresh Blends Recording: Sarah's Story


I was VERY HONEST in this podcast.  I truly said my deepest fears, feelings, guilt, jealousy, etc.  I hope when you listen to the podcast that you can see my heart.  I hope when you listen to this you will know that what I say does not mean to be harsh, judgmental, or a pity party.  It is just me.....telling my honest feelings.  


As I was listening to the Podcast there are parts I feel like I was maybe too honest.....because you see I only reveal a lot of my true feelings to a few close friends/family.  A few things I would like to clarify.  First of all, we appreciate the medical staff at CMC in Dallas.  Yes, there are times that I felt their egos kept them from truly listening to us, but overall the staff worked very hard to give Emma the best chance possible.  We made a great choice in bringing Emma to CMC and we have never second-guessed that decision.  Secondly, Social Media (aka Facebook) can be hard for me at times.  I would never wish ill on anyone else, especially an innocent baby; however, I would be lying if I said that it is easy to see the “normal”, if that really exists, of so many people when Emma struggles every day to simply survive.  Let me also say that I have met so many amazing mothers during this journey.  Moms who are doing this on their own, young moms, adoptive moms, older moms, and other caretakers who have to be in the "mom shoes".  Most of us did everything "right" in our pregnancies.  However, in this process I have also seen some of these dear sweet babies lay in their hospital beds without any family encouraging them along the way, and/or families discussing the money they will receive from having a "special needs" child.    This is my struggle….envy that is.  I ask that you continue to pray for me as I do my best to take care of Emma, encourage and support others going through something similar, and maintain a Christian-like attitude. 

I really do appreciate your prayers, support, and encouragement.  Being Emma’s mom has taught me so very much.  She is my greatest gift and biggest blessing.

Thank you for allowing me to be open, honest, and vulnerable. 

God is Good!  All the Time!  God is Good!

Sarah     

You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb.
~Psalm 139:13






3 comments:

  1. WOW! Amazing podcast! Thanks for sharing:) God bless you all

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  2. I am deeply touched by how God is working through the lives of our daughter-in-law, son, and granddaughter Emma.

    Emily Dickinson wrote:
    "We never know how high we are
    Till we are called to rise;
    And then, if we are true to plan
    Our statutes touch the skies-"

    I think Scott, Sarah, and Lil Warrior Princess Emma are traveling a path none of us would choose, but are traveling the path admirably because they have invited God along for the entire journey. His presence has been with them from the beginning, and He has helped them to be an example of how He will stay beside those who choose to follow Him.

    In truth, with the Father's help, and to His glory, their "statutes touch the skies."

    Nana Jana loves these three so very much more than words can say. May they continue to all three walk with God. Thank you, Prayer Warriors, for supporting them along the way.

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  3. Sarah - I thought the podcast was very well done. It was so touching - even though I've been following Emma all along and hear things from Stacey, hearing you recount the events 'in voice' really brings home what y'all have gone through.

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