I realize that Scott just updated everyone about last night's events. However, he just called to inform me that the doctors have decided that they need to re-intubate her again. Apparently, she is still working too hard to breathe. While she is working less than earlier yesterday, she is not getting enough calories(energy) to supplement how hard she is having to work, so it is counterproductive. This is slightly scary for us since the re-intubation last time did not go smoothly. However, the doctors are prepared this time for large mucus plugs and are all in attendance for this intubation process. I am still at the RMH. I am feeling a lot better but am not going to take any chances with passing anything to Emma. Please pray that this intubation process will go smoothly and that it is the right decision for Emma's recovery. We are praying that she will get some good nutrition this week, get her drainage tube out, and that the next time they extubate, she will be ready! God is in control and knows what is best for our little girl. Sometimes it is hard to let go and let God, but He has been so comforting, amazing, and faithful to us through this process so we put our full trust in him. This morning as I cried because I want to be there and am heavy-hearted about how hard Emma is having to work and what the plans are, a song came to mind.
"Open my eyes to what you know. So I can stretch so I can grow. My feelings toss me to and fro. Open my eyes to what you know."
I am asking God to open my eyes to his plans and to let me see and appreciate all that his has, is, and will do for us.
Also, pray for Scott. He is going on little sleep. I want to be there for him so bad. He is an awesome daddy and is Emma's voice right now.
Sarah (Emma's Mommy)